my baby is one.

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Earlier this week when I was googling how to switch a child from formula to milk, I stumbled upon this article in babycenter about how parenthood changes your life.  And then because Booboo is one (tomorrow!!) I started bawling my eyes about some of the items on the list because having your first baby turn a year old is kind of an emotional thing for a momma.

(excerpt from the article)
Writer and mom; Rebecca Woolf, lists her most notable post-baby observations

Where you once believed you were fearless, you now find yourself afraid.
You respect your body ... finally.
You respect your parents and love them in a new way.
You find that your baby's pain feels much worse than your own.
You think of someone else 234,836,178,976 times a day.
You look at your baby in the mirror instead of yourself.

and the one that really tipped me over the edge:
You finally stop to smell the roses, because your baby is in your arms.

(I know, I'm crying again too.)

I usually have a million words to explain how things make me feel.  But all the words I can come up with about being a mother has been, its so weird.
Its so weird that I know how to do mom stuff; like administer baby tylenol and change a diaper in the dark and grocery shop while entertaining a baby in the cart.
Its so weird that even though this child is so annoying sometimes; he smiles and I instantly feel happy and grateful.
Its so weird that my entire day sometimes hinges on whether or not he eats.
Its so weird that when he's awake I can't wait until his nap, and if he oversleeps; I can't wait until he wakes up so I can play with him again.
Its so weird how I am proud that he can recognize the cartoon picture of a duck on his formula can and then say "ca ca" because its a bird (which is the sound he thinks birds make thanks to the 20lb crows in our backyard).
Its so weird that its been a whole year that he's been alive when sometimes it feels like it was just yesterday we were going to the hospital.
Its so weird that its only been a year that he's been alive when its hard to remember our life without him.

happy birthday, my baby.

I am going to try really, really hard not to cry on your birthday every year.
but I can't make any promises about that.
let's just say, I won't do it in front of your friends..k?

I love you, my darling.


  1. I don't know what it is like to be a Mom, but from following your blog and watching your baby grow up, it looks like Motherhood suits you well.

    Happy Birthday, Greyson!

  2. This post almost brought me to tears. Thanks for sharing your life with us. It helps those of us about to venture into the married, family-building world to read your honest, candid blog.

    It's so weird that it seems like just yesterday we were playing vball for SU and now you're a mommy! :)

    Happy Birthday, Greyson!

  3. I can't believe he's one!! I remember the post from when you announced you were preggers...and when you revealed the gender. He's such a good boy and you're a great mumma! Happy Birthday, Greysonnnn!