And so it went for a long while; me just writing rambles in my brain about our regular life. But then after some time in the blogosphere, I started writing about our 12 Months of Kindness and also writing some non-diary style posts and I started to see my little section of the internet as less of a journal and more of a collection of meaningful stories of my life and of me; who I am right in this moment.
In early 2012, two full months after posting it, my 25 Rules for Moms with Sons hit a tipping point (at this moment that one post of mine has been viewed 2,060,901 times: un.believe.able.) and I experienced the bizarre feeling that happens when you suddenly realize people who don't know you in any capacity are now reading the linings of your brain. It's both exhilarating and terrifying.
today, I blog for vastly different reasons and to a much larger audience (hello!!) than I ever could have imagined back in 2008 when I started in our little townhouse as a newlywed with hopes of becoming a mom someday. Oh, sweet, little, clueless Tabitha, how I love to think of you sometimes worrying about how you'll spend up all the hours in a day. lolololololololol. you're so adorable.
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I blog because I can write about what I want to say so much better than I can actually say what I want to say (this, this, and this). My brain thinks in paragraphs highlighted in quotation marks and setting references. Ideas for blogs and scenes from my novel float and drift behind my eyes all day. To not write would be to choose handcuffs.
I blog because it is a record of who I am in my life right now. It tracks all the things that are bottled up in my brain that don't come out during my days filled with sippy cups, sticky toddler hands, and giggles. Someday my kids will think I'm horrible! The worst! The very last person on the Earth who would understand what they're going through or be able to relate in any way. Or worse (please no), for some tragic reason I won't be around - then on that day, maybe they can come here and read these words and get to know their mother.
It's been a weird and wonderful journey through blogging and I am so grateful to have found and stuck with it for all this time. I'm still hanging around, despite my lack of posts in the past few weeks. Winter and basketball season and sick kids and babies who refuse bottles have taken over my life...but I can see the end of the tunnel and I can't wait to be back to blogging as usual. Thanks for sticking around. I honestly appreciate you for spending any amount of your day with me and my thoughts. thank you, thank you, thank you.