Around Here Week 15: 04/05-11

Tuesday, April 14, 2020

A glimpse into what it is like to live in our home just this moment (and week 4 of the covid-19 lockdown).




 










































Intentional Outdoor Hours: 34+ hours (of 1000)
Up 4 hours this week, we had some beautiful days sprinkled into the week. The kids whooped me by a mile with outdoor time (all the fishing too!) but I was able to get out for a few walks with Red in the stroller in our driveway by midweek and we even got Red outside for his first fire! The kids would make a fire every night if they could (they also want to eat outside for every meal if they could). By the end of the week, me and this c-section incision made it all the way to the bottom of the driveway for the mail (woohoo!) slowly but surely I'll get back to normal, even if I hate how slowly.

Reading and finishing Nyxia by Scott Reintgen. It was an interesting read but I only got really into it by the last third of the book. It ended on a note that feels unfinished because it is setting up for the next book of the series. I don't think I'll go on further than this book - it would make a great sci-fi action movie though!

Introducing Red to our family through windows. breaks my heart, but also makes me so happy to see them at all. My parents stopped by on Sunday to see the little man through the sliding glass door and chat for awhile. The big kids were anxious to get outside and show Chum around the yard at a safe social distance. Then we loaded up Sheila on Saturday night and made a trip out to see Mimi (Brandon's 82 yr old grandma who now shares a birthday with Redland!) We surprised her and she was so thrilled to see the baby and all the kids. When will this be over so we can properly hug!? We've learned our lesson I think (I hope!) of the value of a hug.

Filling in the pages for Red's baby book recognizing what an odd snapshot in time his "the world I cam into" pages have captured. Major current events (covid-19 pandemic), famous celebrities (Joe Exotic), tv shows (Coronavirus daily task force briefings), popular websites (zoom virtual meetings), fashion trends (diy face masks with bandana and hair ties).

Grateful for little helpers. The kids have been so sweet in finding ways to be helpful as they know that my "belly booboo" makes it hard for me to do all my normal activities. Brandon banished me to the bedroom for the first two days home from the hospital so I could pretend I had the full normal c-section stay (hah). The girls were happy to deliver my meals by tray and have me call them restaurant servers. We have plenty (too many!) arms to hold Red when he needs a burp or to just give some snuggles.

Blown away by the magic of babies. That second night in the hospital with Red was terrible -he was up for the literal entire night screaming like a banshee and would not stop unless he was nursing. Needless to say, I started semi-hallucinating by the morning and was so nervous to bring him home wondering how in the heck we would survive with a screaming all hours of the night baby and four other kids. And then we got home and Red immediately mellowed. It was the noise and movement of this circus family that he was used to hearing when he was baking on the inside. His siblings hold, snuggle up, talk, or read to him and he sits there with a contented look on his face like, 'yes, these are my people.' I just can't get over it.

Celebrating our ten year old biggest boy! He got the best surprise that he could wish: fishing season opening the day before his birthday. So on his actual day, we woke up super early - Dad, Red, Violet, and I sang to him over pumpkin roll (the other two were still sleeping), and he and Dad were off to fishing camp for the day. I got text pictures and missed him all day - but I couldn't help but smile at how happy our boy was to be in the creek with a wet line - I couldn't give him a better day than that! They headed home around dinner and Grey was whooped - came home, went up to his bed and passed out for four hours. We tried to wake him up, but he was so tired (and looking like my baby Booboo in the sleepy face which mended my momma's heart a little). He did finally wake up again around 9p and came down so that the kids could give him their homemade cards (complete with Rusty's card that he requested to write"Happy birthday bunghole")

Having the wind knocked out of me, like I do every year for Grey's birthday as it's also the marker for my motherhood journey. Some days I feel like I got this and other (most) days I think how is it possible to still not know what I'm doing after ten years?! Mommahood is a funny, heartbreaking, beautiful thing.

Fishing! (well everyone but me and Red). The state of PA surprised everyone with opening fishing season almost two weeks early on a random Tuesday to try to prevent the streams filled with fishermen on opening day. So the second my boys found out that it was officially fishing season - they made their way to a stream! B took Grey and Rust out on Tuesday afternoon just to get their lines wet because they could - hah! Then B and Grey were at fishing camp all day for Grey's birthday. The girls woke up on Saturday and immediately got dressed for fishing camp because it was their turn and they weren't taking no for an answer. So B took Grey, Gem, and Violet fishing for most of Saturday. Thank goodness quarantine doesn't include the streams, man - my family would not survive!

Listening to Rusty "read" Brown Bear, What Do You See? to Redland about 300 times. He's memorized the rhyme of the book and he is so proud to read it aloud to Red - who actually loves listening to it - so win win. Rust still has a strong lisp and can't pronounce some letter sounds so it's the sweetest damn thing ever. I can take listening to it on repeat because it's so adorable.

Hosting a kid campout in our room one night as everyone can't stand to be away from Red for more than 1 minute in this house. Hah! All the kids but Grey (who sleeps on the couch almost every night #nobedtimesummer style) slept on pillows and blankets on our floor and all three slept right through the sounds and movement of the nighttime feeding extravaganza every 2-3 hours.

Still recovering which is very frustrating to me. I am not good at being patient for my body to work like I want it too - so recovering from this c-section has been very annoying to me. (hah! I'm the actual worst). I did not know to expect all these air pockets trapped in my insides and it took me to 8 days post-surgery to feel comfortable lying on my side! My incision is healing well though and each day, I feel a little better; I just wish it would go faster.

Staggering naps throughout the week as everyone is getting more sleepy during the day with random pockets of springtime outdoor hours and also runny noses (#thanksallergyseason). Everyone obviously wants to nap with Red, so we've been spreading out the naptime opportunities so everyone gets a chance to both catch up on a little much needed rest and get solid sleepy snuggles in with the most popular person in our family.

Accepting that the schools are closed for the rest of the academic year! It was tough news to take this week - although truthfully I anticipated it coming. Grey cheered and Gemma boo'ed and I pendulum back and forth between relief (to be home with everyone and get this special time together) to heartbreak for our student athletes, and students who find safety in school, and especially my seniors.

Easter holiday'ing with all the fun traditions as best as we can maintain. My sister Uch set up a Adams cousin zoom meeting on Friday afternoon to make egg berts together (hollow egg with grass seed in it to grow hair). Our grandma Helen taught us all how to make them, so we all spent time laughing, chatting, and designing our egg berts together. It was so comforting to see their faces and hear their voices for the holiday. I got teary-eyed a few times thinking about not being able to see them all together on Easter like has been tradition in our family since I have been alive! And also inspired to think I want to live my life so that someday my children's children strive to find a way to be together for the holidays even when I'm not here anymore to make them do it. (love you gram, miss you everyday). The kids dyed a few eggs with an egg dying kit I randomly found in the Easter decoration box (win!) and we just about finished coloring our Lenten countdown charts!

Humoring Grey by playing a Family Challenge game that he made up with Minute-to-Win-It games. He was so excited to make the scorecard and set up all the games that even though B and I were exhausted by Saturday night, we went for it. There were laughs, lots of tears, arguing, threats to quit playing from every child - but we did it. Omigosh. At one point, Brandon and I looked at each other laughing in that exasperated 'wtf' way because half of the kids were shouting at each other while the other half were crying about not winning.

College'ing and putting the final touches on my research paper! I also remembered to turn in my weekly reflections (virtual teaching reflection style!) to my principal and mentor teachers to stay on track with all the class requirements. Only three more assignments and I will have finished the necessary class to finalize my PA certification.

Homeschooling with the addition of the school packets that arrived last week. The big kids' teachers sent home work packets and we have real 'homework' type papers to work on now at home. We are still sticking to our schedule of only 1 hour a day of worksheets/dedicated "school time" and using the rest of the day to focus on outside school, chores, and free play (which all three contain A LOT of learning). Gemma got to have a class Zoom meeting and was so proud to show off her baby brother to the whole class. I'm feeling very grateful to have the support of the school papers as that alleviates a lot of stress on my part trying to find things that are close to where they should be practicing. Thank you teachers! We love and miss you!

Virtual teaching not a thing because this is my "maternity leave" I took this week off to focus on getting back to normal(ish) health following the birth of the new babe and c-section healing. I had a cultural activity for the students this week to learn about the traditions of Semana Santa (Holy Week), so their work was taken care of and I let them know not to expect a response back from me until after Easter break. Luckily for me though, as we are virtual teaching - I don't need to take a regular maternity leave and I'm planning on "returning" following Easter break (4/15) to virtually teaching my students for the rest of the school year.

Making next to nothing because we were so incredibly blessed with family and friends who dropped off meals, groceries, snacks, and surprises all week long! The generosity and goodness of people astound me everyday and I can't describe how grateful we are to have people in our corner. Honestly, we are so touched and so very grateful - thank you! thank you! thank you!!
breakfasts: eggs & toast, cereal/oatmeal, pb&j toast, pumpkin roll (for Grey's birthday!), scrambled eggs over potatoes & ham leftovers, peach bars (from Carli!), french toast (made by Gemma and Violet!), leftovers!
lunch: McDonalds burgers & chicken sandwiches (from Heather), leftovers (twice), chicken alredo pasta (from Heather), buffalo chicken dip (from Heather), salads with leftover toppings, mac&cheese and tuna sliders, lunchmeat sandwiches
dinner: BBQ chicken legs and pasta side (from Heather), potatoes, ham, and cheese casserole with green bean side and brookie dessert (from Melissa H & my student Sarah!), Fox's pizza and wings (from the Conn family for Grey's birthday!), leftovers (twice), Fox's pizza, salads, and apple cinnabread dessert (from our family friend Tootsie), Chicken, veggie, and stuffing casserole (from the Stankan family)

Around Here Week 14: 03/29-04/04

Friday, April 10, 2020

A glimpse into what it was like to live in this week where our new baby brother decided to join us in the midst of a global pandemic.




























Intentional Outdoor Hours:  30+ hours (of 1000)
We had an absolute beautiful day on Sunday and snagged a bunch of time outside that included even lunch on the patio (the kids' favorite!) Brandon pulled out the pressure washer and did the front porch and sidewalks and the kids danced joyfully through the mists. We are all so ready for summertime! The dogs even got a bath before the end of the day; a long and productive outdoor day!

Reading Nyxia by Scott Reintgen a little bit.

Toad-sitting for the summer. The kids' STEAM teacher, Mrs. Roxby who they adore asked if we would be interested in being the host family for the class's fire-bellied toads and they were thrilled. We moved the 7 toads and their habitat into the girls' room on Tuesday. We got to feed them the crickets and the kids were cheering as they watched the toads snatch up the crickets.

Meeting Studerbaby #5! I had my non-stress test and weekly appointment with our midwife on Wednesday where it was determined at 2cm dilated with a possible cord prolapse, there was no time to wait - we'd be getting our baby that day! As it was April 1st - I literally had to text a picture of myself in a hospital gown with the message, "We are getting the baby today - this is NOT an April Fools joke!" to make sure our family would believe us. (hah). It was pretty quick moving from there and our baby boy, Redland Adams Studer, was born by 5:22p at 7lbs 2 oz and 19.5 inches long! My midwife (and cousin) Meg was amazing, our surgeon Dr. Khouzami was incredible, my nurses and anesthesiologists were awesome, and Brandon was able to be there in the surgery with me. Not going to lie, I would never choose a c-section again if possible (hah), but Red is here and safe and I am recovering, so all is well.

Overjoyed that Redland shares a birthday with his great grandma; Mimi. He and Mimi are exactly 82 years apart in age. She was so sweetly excited and I cried about at least twice that day. It makes me so happy!

Isolating even more than has been normal with just Brandon, Red, and I in the hospital as the Covid-19 pandemic has restricted all visitors to the hospital. It was pretty eerie and lonely to be there for two days with no visits from friendly and familial faces like it was for all the other kids' births. We did lots of photos, texts, and video chats though to share Red's sweet face with those we love. The kids called every 10 minutes to see their baby brother again - but by day 2 I was ready to get the heck out of there and home so our whole family could be together again. Again, due to the pandemic, I was cleared within 2 days (as my healing was making good progress and Red looked great) and it was deemed probably safer for us to be quarantined at home than at the hospital with frontline heroes in and out of the room all day.

Social distance visiting. My parents came to our house on Sunday and we chatted outside and reminded the kids (with heavy hearts) that they had to stay 6ft away. It was so nice to see their faces though. Tasha flew to our house when it was c-section go time and traded off between her and Kayla to watch the kids for the next two days (hand-washing and Lysol'ing like crazy). My mom and Kayla were there when we pulled up from the hospital and stood several feet away to peek into the car seat and coo and smile over Red's little face. Then after Red was at home, Gigi and Pappy stopped by to deliver dinner and groceries. Gigi had washed down with surgical soap, wore her N95 mask, and got to hold Red for a few minutes before she washed her hands.  All the rest of the kids kept their distance from her and Pap and Violet cried almost the whole entire visit because she cannot stand to see Pappy without hugging him. The whole family had bath night while Red had a little sponge bath!

Visiting the doctor's office for Red's first check up. What a strange world we live in right now. We were instructed to wait in the car until they called us and then just Red and I went into the building and straight back to our well check room. He did great for his appointment, but at no point was there more than 2 people in our room and I was getting a weird vibe from the doctor during the check up until I realized it was only because he was all the way across the room asking/answering questions - instead of on the rolling stool in a more personable way - but he was practicing social distancing in the appointment!

Managing the rotations of siblings that get to hold Red next because we have an obsession situation over here. I have to keep saying, "We don't have to fight over who gets to spend time with him - he lives here now; forever!"

College'ing with the addition of 2 more pages to my research paper. I emailed my professor on Friday to let her know that we had the baby and she was so sweetly excited about it in her reply message. She also informed me that due to the global situation - all of our papers have been pushed back one week which was such welcome news! So my research paper is due Easter instead - which gives me a whole week of "maternity leave" to get it wrapped up. Yay!

Homeschooling with some free printables (thanks internet!), keeping tabs on our caterpillars, and learning up on fire-bellied toads! The kids did some real Home Ec learning when my sisters and mom were here with them while we were in the hospital. They all pitched in to help clean and organize the house before baby Red came home. Grey vaccumed the whole house and even learned what a 'baseboard' is (hah). Thank you Abba, Kitty, and Uch!!

Virtual teaching with some comprehensible input stories and activities. Spanish 1 and 2 read about La Criatura and answered daily prompts for the week while Spanish 2 read Ratones en Mi Casa with corresponding daily prompts. Spanish 3/4 Honors read the same story (Ratones) but in the past tense and had their daily prompts due for the week as well. I announced LMA pass winners on Monday (congrats students!) and started working on our next week's lessons about Semana Santa. I am also still sharing a weekly música miércoles video on Wednesdays (this week was Marc Anthony's Vivir Mi Vida) and then my "maternity leave" started on Thursday since Baby Red had arrived.

Making lots of meals but also receiving so much love and support from our family in the form of food and groceries.
Breakfasts: sopapilla, cereal, chocolate crescent rolls, pancakes (twice!)
Lunches: buffalo chicken dip, chicken nuggets & tater tots, mac & cheese, chicken alfredo with roasted tomatoes (Hello Fresh), leftovers (twice!)
Dinners: burgers and roasted potato fries (Hello Fresh), cheesy chicken and rice in the crockpot, taco tuesday, meatloaf (from Gigi and Pap!), Fox's pizza (from Uch!), wings and chicken salad (from Brandon's office co-workers), pierogie lasagna (from Gigi & Pap!)

Redland is here.

Monday, April 6, 2020

Red, 
my little greatest showman. 
none of it went like I thought it would go
you have a mother that likes to make plans and calendar notes and check tasks off of to do lists
but you were born into a world that does not support plans and calendar notes and normal task lists

I wish I could write more at this time
but your momma has a lot of thoughts 
and processing 
and sorting out in her heart and mind to do

all there is to know is that
you are here. 
and you are perfect. 
and you are squishy. 
and you smell like heaven. 
and you are so teeny (your momma, she forgets every time how small babies are!)
and you bring so much joy to your big brothers and sisters
and you are strong
and that is all that matters in this time of uncertainty


the thing is
we miss our people.
we want hugs from our grandparents and friends
we want to pass you from arm to adoring arm
we want to coo and giggle and melt over your little expressions together
we want to share food and drink with those we love in celebration of your birthday
we want to set dates on the calendar for meet&greets and playdates

it feels too lonely and unsure
how long must we stay away from the physical closeness of the people that help us hold it all together?
there are so many hugs that are waiting to surround you
there are so many kisses that haven't been given to you
the heaven scent from the top of your head has not been inhaled by all of your people
you have not squeezed around the fingers of those that will cheer you on all your life
my heart aches to think of how much you deserve all of those things, Red.
my heart aches to know how much the people you love need to give you all those things, Red.
I know they will, as soon as they can safely
but the waiting hurts a lot

and you are definitely getting a lot of hugs and kisses and heaven scent inhales and fingers to squeeze from me and dad and Grey and Gem and Violet, and Rusty
you are so loved that all day long I have to say,
"we don't have to fight over who gets to hold Redland next! He lives with us now forever!"

when you are in my arms, Red,
everything that feels scary blurs out
and I can focus on just this one moment

I don't know how to be what the world needs me to be right now
I don't know how long this will last
I don't know if there is more scary, sad days ahead

but I know I can do this one thing
I can be your momma


I love you, Red.
you are the tiniest person in our family
but somehow the anchor
while the world swirls around in uncertainty outside our mountaintop
you hold us to this present moment
the beauty and simplicity of this moment right now
thank you, Red.
we are so lucky to be your family.